A post about anxiety and the weather in Georgia. Both unpredictable.
Today is my birthday and I'm not baking. This isn't even a post about food. Although I normally write about food and this blog is mostly just a recipe site where I share the latest dessert I've whipped up, I thought I would share something a bit personal this time.
I had big plans for my birthday today. I was going to drive to see my mom which might not sound like a big deal but it was a very big deal to me. She only lives 5 hours away. We live in Georgia and she lives in Florida. We moved here 6 years ago and I've never driven to see her in that time. I used to drive out of town without a problem.
I've driven from South Florida to North Florida countless times (450 miles) and have even driven by myself from Florida to Chicago, granted that was in my 30s but still, I did it without a problem. Now I'm 52 and I just can't do it! Driving by myself out of town gives me anxiety and I'm not sure why. It started about 4 years ago. I think menopause could be to blame.
I really thought I could do it today. I had a great book on tape ready to go. (Talking as Fast as I Can by Lauren Graham of Gilmore Girls.) Keeping your mind distracted is good for avoiding anxiety (usually). I got about 33 miles down the road and had to turn around. The "road" was I-285 in Atlanta which is about 8 lanes and 10 million cars. It's never not crowded. It even makes me anxious when I'm just a passenger.
I've wanted to write about this sooner, but it's very personal and has nothing to do with baking. I thought perhaps I'm not the only person in the world with this problem. It's hard to explain anxiety. I'm not really afraid of driving. I'm afraid of the anxiety I'll get when I'm driving. It only happens when driving out of town by myself. I'm just fine driving around town. Can you relate? It's so frustrating and I'm feeling so defeated today.
The only thing that is making me happy right now is the snow outside, so I thought it was the perfect time to share with you some photos from the last few days of snow in Georgia. We had a VERY rare snowfall that lasted almost 24 hours on Friday and left us with about 6-inches of snow.
Our yard and neighborhood were covered with the most beautiful blanket of fluffy white snow. It was magical! You see, we live just North of Atlanta and have never gotten snow in December since we moved here 6 years ago. My neighbor, who's lived here her whole life, told me the last time there was snow in Georgia, it was 1990. Twenty seven years! What a wonderful gift from God!
The kids did something different, they played outside in the snow for hours and hours and hours. They weren't on their electronics for once and it was a beautiful thing. They went sledding, had snow ball fights, walked all over the neighborhood through the snow, built snowmen and half of an igloo!
They came back home every few hours to exchange their wet clothes for dry ones and warm up a bit, then out again for more snow fun. Driving around the neighborhood was a sight to see, white snow everywhere, on roof tops, cars, trees, bushes and mailboxes.
The neighbors had an impromptu party on our street and I learned what a Georgia cooler is. (See photo.) How cool is that!
Yesterday we counted 15 snowmen as we drove through the hood. Today it's slowly melting but there is still quite a bit left. I'm savoring every last snowflake and dreaming of a white Christmas. (Note: This snowman was made by our neighbors and if there was a snowman making contest, they would be the winner!)
I haven't given up on driving out of town. I will do it one of these days. But today wasn't THE day. For now, I'll enjoy the last of the snow and maybe eat some cake!
Thank you for letting me share a little bit of my day with you.
Stay tuned for my next post which will be a recipe: Easy Marshmallow Snowmen Cupcakes
Nicole Johnson says
Happy Birthday Lise! I'm sorry your trip got cut short. 🙁 I had a dentist appointment this week that I had to abort, mid-cleaning, and I usually like the dentist (thanks to the gas!). It was embarrassing and semi-traumatic and I was pretty upset with myself.
This too shall pass!
I had pretty terrifying anxiety about driving in the rain for several years also after a really nasty hydroplane incident. It still gets me once in a while in bad conditions!
Carolyn says
Thank you for sharing this!
Alecia says
Happy Birthday! I live in NY and we have snow from October - May some years and I still hate driving in snow. Enjoy the snowman!
Laura says
Such gorgeous pictures of snow. Thank you for sharing such a personal story.
Cheryl @ Pook's Pantry says
Happy Birthday, Lise! You are not alone, not by a long shot. I'm in my mid-40's now and I used to be so fearless, but now, not quite as much! We've all been there.
Jocelyn (Grandbaby Cakes) says
Anxiety can be a real issue for many people, especially around this time of the year. Thanks for sharing!!!
Rachel Gurk says
Thanks for your willingness to be open and honest 🙂
Lindsay @ The Live-In Kitchen says
I hope you're able to overcome your anxiety, but good for you in addressing it and finding something to enjoy anyways.
Dan says
I think we all suffer from anxiety to some degree or another...Here's to a happy New Year, hoping good things for you!
Renee - Kudos Kitchen says
I appreciate your honesty and feel your pain. I too suffer from anxiety at times and hate that it gets the better of me. The photos of the snow are beautiful. Glad you were able to appreciate, and enjoy it. Happy Birthday!
Judy R says
Happy Birthday! Enjoy your day ♥
Michele taylor says
Isaiah 41:10, do not be afraid, for i am with you,do not be anxious, for i am your god, I will fortify you, yes, I will help you, I will really hold on to you with my right hand of righteousness.
Valerie L. says
Happy Birthday to you -- today is my birthday, too! Enjoy your special day!!!